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Note to God lyrics Charice
If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I’d ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God

I think too much all the time.

This blog is too depressing.

Im still fighting the shit in me.

& i decided to stop blogging.

thats why life can never be perfect.

This week past really fast.

Things i did

• Watch New moon with the sec 3,2
• Went to a church friend’s house to watch Left behind 1 2 3
• went to school for sj
• almost went out with a few friends but then they were canceled, maybe next week.
• went shopping with mum. 
• took care of my sick bro.
• stay at home rot.

wish for a better week ahead

At first i didnt wish to go. but Idk, smth just tell me to go. So i went.

For me, I went cause i needed to find God again more than mixing with the people there. i was really confused & disturbed before the camp.

THE BEST PART OF THE CAMP

The worship and the sermons were AWESOME. I discovered so much about the holy spirit.

SOME THINGS THAT WOULD STAY WITH ME FOR A LONG LONG TIME

• we  love cause God loves us
• Worship truthfully
• with the help of the holy spirit nothing is impossible

it is so hard to concentrate during service when im so sick. argh.

ATC is finallyover. YES YES YES!

FEELINGS for camp

alright, i shall be honest here. It was a mixed feeling from the starting of camp.

FIrst day.

Morning & afternoon , i was feeling good, thinking that it wld last for the whole camp , but i was wrong. Night came & hell was beside it. By then i was super super pissed & angry with everyone. I was so mad that a thought about me wanting to kill them was so strong . +i Need SLEEP. So well, one first night was argh. 

Second day second night,

Triarch was tiring & nerve-wracking. the first one was alrite for me. Idk why. Second one was phew. Third one almost killed me. the feeling was so indescribable. But thank god i manage to held back my tears. Even when im writing this i feel like crying. Camp fire was simply torturing when im so desperate & yet i had to do a funny skit. thk goodness i pulled through. In the night i thought alot. & alot. The officers and all were just trying their best to make us better humans and not torturing us.Finally i sort out my thoughts and understood what the camp was about. Then there was trierarch in the night. & i was the main coordinator. I was like “omg” ! I survived the first day and the second day, will this be the end of my survival? oh well, i just gave my best and phewwwwwwwww! It ended alrite. + i did not have night duty.

Third day was like WOW. Tired was one thing. GALD was another thing. Thk goodness that everyone pulled through.

Somethings i learnt through this camp

It’s so important to reflect on the whole camp when i get to realise how GREAT this camp is. It not only built up my physical strength but my mental strength too. Working alone really made me feel so small & pathetic. Doing things with a group, there wld be encouragments given by members of team, wldnt it make u feel much better? Overall this camp will be meaningful to you if you truly understand it.

Okay, tmr will be youth camp. Hope it wld turn out good for me.

*edited.

the photos of camp was completely a joke. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I’m already tired before camp.
Oh well, even though preparing ATC & POC is really tiring + irritating, it is fun with the companies of my little gagas.

hehehe. my solution worked well. It makes people comment. well done tianen, yr brain is of good use. lets see, Holiday has been rather busy due to the upcoming t.t. camp. ( if u understand wat t.t. means , good for u). Oh, my bro went to myanmar for mission trip, well , it seems that my bro is at home.

I should put a tagboard in this pathetic blog. no one wants to comment even if they come.

Edited*
wordpress doesnt allow me to use tagboard. TOADS.!